So it's Friday. After vacation and going back to school was strange. I felt like a mindless robot. I got in trouble on Wednesday and now have a curfew, more chores, & I can't go out on weekdays anymore. My friend Ashley's having lots of problems. She's been cutting like all week, mostly because People are Jackasses. Specifically Guys right now, no offense. I have this violent need to vent and attack something/someone. But I'm keeping myself together. Things feel so empty and meaningless sometimes. And I still wonder all these things. I'm still trying to find out who I Really am. I just wish I knew and things were better. I wonder how I'm hanging on, how I've not had a complete breakdown. The school years gone by fast. But I still have that feeling, I miss my friends of course. I miss having someone to talk to about this kind of stuff. New friends don't exactly all talk like that, or just aren't comfortable with me or the other way around. Will I keep my composure if I get accepted into Northwest, where I shall start over again. Knowing no one. I'm still in the process of showing who I am here. I've lost friends and gained others. I'm not talking as much as usual, which drives me crazy. I have a need to talk, to interact with other human beings. Am I not completely Insane in this retched place?